Lifting the lid: A former porn star going by the name S.K. reveals what is really like to work in the industry during a candid interview on the latest episode of the Cosmo Happy Hour podcast (file photo used)
A former porn star has lifted the lid on what it was really like to go from from a college student to adult entertainer as she reveals that the only X-rated films she likes to watch with her partners are the ones she's starred in.
The retired adult entertainer from Massachusetts, who goes by the pseudonym S.K., joined Cosmopolitan editors Elisa Benson and Ali Drucker for a candid discussion about women and porn on the latest episode of the Cosmo Happy Hour podcast, in which she dished about everything watching her adult films with her partners and the camaraderie on set.
'It
wasn't like I was desperate for money, so there was no need for me to
do anything I didn't feel like doing,' S.K. explains of her time in the
industry. 'I was really there to have a good time. [Porn] was more of a
passion project for me, so I really only did as much of it as I thought
would be fun.'
S.K.
says she has 'always had a little sex vixen waiting to be unleashed',
but before she got into porn, she was working as a webcam girl inside
the the dorm room of her New England liberal arts college.
'You could truly choose your own adventure, and I had a lot of props and costumes,' she says of her time as a webcamming.
S.K.
eventually developed a regular fan base and started looking into
another avenues of doing porn in on the East Coast before she headed to
Los Angeles, where she started doing improv comedy.
When
one of the women from her improvisation class revealed that a producer
asked her to take her shirt off and she refused, S.K. says she was
reminded of her interest in getting into the adult film industry.
After Googling the top porn agencies in Los Angeles, S.K. took a series of nude photos of herself and sent them off.
S.K. says she was soon contacted by former porn star Shy Love, who founded Adult Talent Managers.
I even found a literal niche for myself in Amish porn
During
their first meeting, she says Shy Love told her to get naked and noted
that she has 'five different shades of skin tone'.
'My tan was quite uneven at the time. I was like, "I'm sorry I'm from Boston,"' she recalls.
'You
need to get a tan. I want you three shades darker,' Shy Love told her
before giving her the name of a tanning place and hair stylist to start
her adult film makeover.
S.K. explains that the of the first things Shy Love told her was that she is 'very raw'.
'That
was actually part of my appeal,' she says looking back. 'I think that I
was all natural — I even found a literal niche for myself in Amish
porn. They really liked the whole natural look.'
S.K.
says she was so excited about the opportunity that she was almost open
to anything, however, she admits that when Shy Love asked her why she
wanted to get involved in the industry, she didn't have a really good
reason.
She
and Shy Love went through the porn scenarios she would be willing to
do, and the owner of the agency helped mentor S.K., explaining that she
should start off in 'masturbation' and 'girl on girl' and stay there as
long as she could.
'It
is all about novelty so that's why they get so excited when new girls
show up, but you really want to maximize your potential,' she explains.
'So you sort of make your rounds in each genre, but its like if you do
anal first it is like, "Oh, she has already done that."'
S.K.
says she had no problem getting naked during her go-sees with
production companies because it was something she genuinely wanted to
do.
'[If]
you are signing up to do porn, you have to expect that you are getting
naked and people are going to be looking at you in a sexual way,' she
explains. 'I think as long as you know what you are signing up for...
but I don't know if everyone sort of has the luxury I had, where it's
not like my rent was due.'
'I got a labiaplasty so I wanted to show that off,' she adds.
When
it comes to shooting, S.K. says you know you are going to be getting
'extremely intimate' with your co-stars, so 'you just really start
hitting it off right away'.
S.K.
says the guy starts 'courting you immediately' and is 'treating you
like this goddess', however, she admits that she has exchanged numbers
with some of the men, and she has regretted it.
'It
was always like a fun atmosphere,' she recalls. 'I always felt euphoric
after these shoots, and the other girls too I thought were lovely. Like
most people just really loved having sex, so they were usually happy to
be there I think. They seemed like it.'
Maybe it is a little sick and twisted, but I've had guys who want to watch my work
S.K.
says one of her favorite parts of shooting was actually the interview
section before the sex starts, however, she realized male fans had no
idea what she was talking about.
'Most
guys I would talk to would be like, "Wait what? I skipped over the at
least first 10 minutes." So they are just waiting for that money shot I
think.
And
similarly to the sex scenes featured in Hollywood blockbusters, S.K.
says camera men knew what angles to look for and would position her in
certain ways.
However, when asked what the most popular angles were, S.K. says 'p***y'.
'That
is really what it is focusing on [in hardcore porn],' she says, 'But
the softcore can't show the actual penetration, so you have to somehow
hide it.'
Eventually,
S.K. told her parents about her career in the adult film industry, and
she explains that their level-headed reactions made her gain even more
respect for her mother and father, who really focused on understanding
her decision and making sure she was being safe.
'I
think one particular woman really may have gotten a lot of pleasure
from being the one to bear the news to my mother, and I would have hated
that,' S.K. says of her mom finding out.
However,
when the woman in question called her mom and asked if she knew that
her daughter was doing porn, her mother had an incredible reaction.
'I
don't think she really knew the full extent of what I was doing at the
time, [but] she was like, "Why yes, yes I did. Goodbye now."'
After
working in the industry from the ages of 23 to 25, S.K. says she
decided to not renew her contract because it started to feel like work
and she knew it wasn't her 'true life calling', it was just something
she wanted to try.
'Personally, I don't watch very much porn,' she admits. 'Before trying it myself, I hadn't really watched much either.'
However, S.K. says she does like to watch her own work from time to time.
'Maybe
it is a little sick and twisted, but I've had guys who want to watch my
work while also being with me in the flesh,' she admits. 'And that's
always been kind of fun for me.'
S.K. also says that when she finally tells her suitors about her past they think it is really cool.
'They're like, "Whoa, I've never met a porn star before." It can make there life.'
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